SCIENTIFIC-LINUX-USERS Archives

August 2010

SCIENTIFIC-LINUX-USERS@LISTSERV.FNAL.GOV

Options: Use Monospaced Font
Show Text Part by Default
Show All Mail Headers

Message: [<< First] [< Prev] [Next >] [Last >>]
Topic: [<< First] [< Prev] [Next >] [Last >>]
Author: [<< First] [< Prev] [Next >] [Last >>]

Print Reply
Subject:
From:
"Mr. Teo En Ming (Zhang Enming)" <[log in to unmask]>
Reply To:
Date:
Thu, 12 Aug 2010 08:26:58 +0800
Content-Type:
text/plain
Parts/Attachments:
text/plain (360 lines)
Dear Sir/Madam,

RE: Open Letter (Plea for Medical Help/Assistance) to World Leaders

I have uploaded photos, videos, and audios of myself, scanned images of 
my ECG Graphs, laboratory blood test reports, X-Ray films and medical 
documents to Facebook (Facebook account: Teo En Ming (Zhang Enming)) and 
other preferred multimedia sharing sites. Hopefully, my online accounts, 
including Facebook, will not be compromised by my antagonists. I hope 
that the content (text, video, and audio) in my data sharing sites will 
remain fully intact without unauthorized alteration,  modification, and 
deletion by my adversaries. And hopefully nobody will close my Facebook 
account without my authorization and consent either.

I am exceedingly concerned that I might have heart/coronary artery 
disease and that it might be in the late stages.

My physical symptoms are:

1) Aching in the upper left of my chest since beginning January 2009 90% 
of the time, sometimes it may migrate to the right side
2) Shortness of breath from time to time
3) Palpitations in the last few days (I can feel my heart beat very hard 
and irregularly)
4) Muscle aches in the hands and legs, sometimes my hands(palms) will cramp
5) Involuntary movement of fingers/thumbs occasionally
6) Facial spasms occasionally
7) Sometimes I will feel my body "vibrating" anywhere from head to toe
8) When I tried to feel the pulses on my wrists, the pulses will 
"disappear" after a while. This is contrary to what doctors, nurses, and 
others have been telling me. That my pulses are consistent.
9) Sometimes when I am just about to fall asleep, I will get a sudden 
jerk or have a feeling that I am falling or my heart is going to pop out
10) giddiness/dizziness/light-headedness from time to time
11) Sometimes I will feel weak after just waking up, especially in the 
hands
12) discomfort at the back of my head from time to time

I have visited many doctors at Accidents and Emergency (A&E) departments 
of many general hospitals here but they all try to brush me off and tell 
me I am fine. My request for Magnetic Resonance Imaging (MRI) for the 
brain and (more specifically the) heart is usually declined. It seems 
that the doctors are stalling for time, dragging and delaying until 
maybe it is too late to do anything for me. I have been unemployed since 
1st October 2009 and have depleted all my personal savings.

In May 2009, which is just last year only, I have done a MIBI heart 
perfusion study (radioisotope IV + gamma camera) and the 
cardiologist/heart specialist told me I have NO heart/coronary artery 
disease (even though I have high cholesterol and it could be managed). 
LVEF was 64% and MIBI was negative for ischemic at Stage 2 Bruce (as at 
21st May 2009). How could it then have progressed, from NO heart/artery 
disease to the above-mentioned physical symptoms, in such a very short 
period of time?! This is all very very very strange. Could it be some 
other problem instead? Heart/coronary artery disease takes many many 
years to develop.

As you can observe, I am nowhere as obese as Moses Lim, a Singaporean 
Mediacorp TV actor.
References, photos, and videos of Moses Lim:
(1) http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Moses_Lim
(2) http://moseslim.com/content/
(3) http://www.xndo.net/moseslim.html
(4) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2sHKOiegnS8
Yet he is already 60 years old. I also had a grandmother who was very 
very obese and she was able to live until 60+ years old. There are many 
many people who are far fatter and have far greater builds than me. They 
do not have any physical complaints like mine. Why do I have 
weird/strange physical symptoms like giddiness/dizziness, chest aches, 
muscle aches in the limbs, shortness of breath, hyperventilations, and 
palpitations all of a sudden at 32 years old? Foul play?!?!?!

Could it be that my neighbours have been 
frightening/terrifying/threatening me everyday 24x7 non-stop for the 
past 3-4 years with all sorts of terrible/horrible things that can 
happen to me? Maybe my heart couldn't take the stress under such an 
intensive, constant and prolonged psychological abuse? I have also heard 
them talk about me to various people while I am at home. I think they do 
that purposely. But I have had totally no say at all from start to 
finish because I am not allowed any chance for direct involvement. I am 
being excluded and not given any chance to know anything. They also seem 
to have gathered/amassed a lot of private information about me. I 
seriously wonder how they do that. They appear to be extremely 
resourceful and motivated. There appears to be some intrigue and shroud 
of secrecy around me. These people know all of my online monikers and 
email addresses. They have been submitting online forms using my 
identity and have even attempted to submit password reset instructions 
for me without my knowledge and consent. I actually overheard my 
neighbours claiming to have passwords/complete access to all my email 
accounts and other online accounts. They may also create phony email 
accounts and send messages impersonating as me without my knowledge.

Thank you very much for your kind attention and concern.

PS.

(1) My neighbours have claimed that they will never stop or waver in 
their psychological warfare on me unless I commit suicide. Or they will 
wait patiently until I have a heart attack or stroke. How callous they 
are! I want to live and live to a ripe old age. And I wish for a long 
and healthy life too.

(2) I have a severe panic attack on 27 May 2010 Thursday and several 
panic attacks after that. Due to the panic attacks and the severe 
anxiety caused by my neighbours, I have been warded in Changi General 
Hospital (Ward 14) for 2 weeks (from 1st June 2010 to 15th June 2010) 
(EDIT: It's actually four weeks (from 1st Jun 2010 to 2nd July 2010)). I 
am actually on home leave today to write this letter (15 June 2010). I 
will be going back to the ward at night, hopefully before 8 P.M.

(3) Most of the nurses in Ward 14 CGH have been very nice and friendly 
to me. Hopefully they are not putting on a false front. But the doctors 
there are as obstinate as mules. They stubbornly and stoutly refuse to 
give me any advanced heart imaging tests, e.g. MRI (preferred), CT-scan 
(not preferred), echo cardiogram, and ankle brachial index (ABI) tests.

(4) I have a medical appointment at the National Heart Center Singapore 
on 17 June 2010, which is next Thursday. I hope that the heart 
specialist there will allow me to do the advanced imaging tests 
(brain/heart) that I want and tell me the absolute truth about my 
medical condition.

(5) My neighbours have strangely and repeatedly commanded me hundreds of 
times to apply to work in a casino else I would not get medical 
treatment. Strange? Baffling? A casino environment is not suitable for 
me and I do not want to work in a casino. I want to work as an 
Information Technology (IT) engineer. This is my preferred profession.

(6) After discharging from CGH on 2nd July 2010, I still have not 
managed to get any advanced medical imaging tests (MRI) for my 
heart/brain. The doctors at CGH have consistently refused to do the 
tests for me.

(7) I went for an ABI test at National Heart Center Singapore on the day 
of discharge from CGH (2nd July 2010). The results appear to be okay. 
Please refer to my facebook account for the details of the test results. 
(Rt: 1.05 Lt: 1.04)

(8) I am given a full echo cardiogram appointment at the National Heart 
Center Singapore on 2nd Sept 2010. But I am still not given any MRI 
tests for my heart/brain. Strange. (EDIT: I have brought forward my 
echocardiogram appointment to 11 August 2010 Wednesday 2:00 P.M. 
Singapore Time)

(9) I am writing point number 9 onwards until point 29 on 11 Aug 2010 
Wednesday Singapore Time. Please take note.

(10) During my one month hospital stay at Changi General Hospital (Ward 
14) from 1st June 2010 to 2nd July 2010, my neighbours did not come to 
harass me. The physical symptoms which I have described above (except my 
chronic chest pain) gradually subsided. Except for the very first day in 
the hospital ward when I have a number of panic attacks while talking to 
Dr. Sim Ching Ching in a consulting room and the following morning while 
talking to Dr. Lui, I did not have any more panic attacks and my anxiety 
levels decreased during the rest of my hospital stay.

(11) After my discharge from CGH on 2nd July 2010, the disturbances from 
my neighbours have substantially decreased in frequency. I do not know 
why but all of a sudden, from 31st July 2010 Saturday Singapore Time 
onwards, my neighbours have re-started or resumed their operations in 
harassing, frightening, terrifying, threatening, and conducting 
psychological warfare on me in much increased intensity. They keep 
talking to me every few minutes every day 24x7 day and night. It's not a 
face-to-face talk that you might imagine. I didn't converse with them 
much. They just keep talking to me unilaterally. In Housing & 
Development Board (HDB) apartment flats in Singapore, you could hear 
your neighbours in the units to your immediate left, to your immediate 
right, and also in the units immediately above and below you, if they 
are to talk sufficiently loud. If you stay on the 2nd story, you could 
even hear people talking in the void deck (ground floor) and as well as 
from the carpark. It's a psychological warfare by my neighbours to 
instill fear and increase my anxiety.

(12) My neighbours have proudly claimed that they have strong and 
powerful backing from their masters. They told me that they cannot stop 
harassing me at all because they are under orders/instructions from 
their masters.

(13) I have thought of relocating my domicile but my neighbours claimed 
that even if I moved to another location in Singapore far far away from 
them, another set of people would be tasked to harass me and take over 
from them.

(14) Shortly after graduating from the National University of Singapore 
(NUS) with a Bachelor of Engineering (Mechanical Engineering) degree in 
December 2006, I joined the Defense Science and Technology Agency (DSTA) 
in the Infocomm Infrastructure Division in February 2007 as an 
Information Technology (IT) engineer, administrating Linux, UNIX, and 
Windows Servers in its data center. DSTA is an agency under the 
Singapore Ministry of Defense.

(15) Sometime before I left DSTA in August 2007, my neighbours and their 
friends *first* started to harass, stalk, and conduct psychological 
warfare on me by instilling fear and increasing my anxiety at home and 
almost everywhere I go.

(16) Within a short period of time, I managed to secure a job as an IT 
engineer in National Computer Systems (NCS) Ltd, a subsidiary of 
Singapore Telecommunications, in September 2007. The job, as far as I 
could remember, was to maintain Red Hat Enterprise Linux (RHEL) servers, 
Windows Servers, and also perform daily tape backup operations in the 
data center. A strange phenomenon occurred during my stint in NCS Ltd. 
Colleagues and staffs in other departments started to whisper and gossip 
about me. When I approached them, none of them appeared to be willing to 
tell me anything. I had conjectured that some chain emails could be 
circulating about me in the organization. It seemed that some rumour 
mongering activities were going on around me in the organization. 
Without hesitation, my neighbours and their friends came into my mind. 
They had probably approached some people in NCS Ltd, who were probably 
very happy to entertain them and start the chain emailing around in the 
organization. My neighbours and their friends were soon operating in the 
surrounding area and began to harass me. I could not remember the exact 
date I started to develop panic attacks. They were of a much milder 
intensity than those which occurred between 27th May 2010 and 2nd June 
2010. I was warded in Singapore General Hospital from 31st Jan 2008 to 
5th March 2008. Just before the one-year contract expired, I left NCS Ltd.

(17) Between leaving NCS Ltd and joining Asiasoft Online Pte Ltd, I was 
warded in Singapore General Hospital (SGH) a number of times for panic 
attacks.

(18) After recovering from the panic attacks, I joined Asiasoft Online 
Pte Ltd in February 2009 as an IT/IS engineer. Asiasoft Online is an 
online game playing company in Singapore. The company offers online 
games such as Maple Story, Audition, Cabal, GetAmped, Sudden Attack, 
Yulgang, Monster Forest, Raycity, and Warriors of the 3 Kingdoms. I am 
in charge of all the Linux game servers in the company. My biggest and 
proudest achievement cum project was to setup and configure a fully 
working IP Security (IPsec) Virtual Private Networking (VPN) tunnel for 
the company. IPsec VPN is much harder and more complicated to setup than 
OpenVPN (which is based on SSL or Secure Socket Layer). My next task was 
to setup and configure a secondary/backup mail exchanger for the company 
using qmail MTA (Mail Transfer Agent). qmail is much harder and more 
tedious to configure than postfix MTA. (Yahoo! Singapore is using qmail 
MTA.) By far, sendmail MTA is the hardest and the most complicated in 
the Linux world to setup and configure. I was also in charge of the two 
Domain Name Service (DNS) servers (primary and secondary) in the company 
and maintaining and updating all the IPv4 forward and reverse zone 
records. Being in charge of the DNS servers allowed me to learn a bit 
about Sender Policy Framework (SPF), DomainKeys and DKIM. If my memory 
does not fail me, the DNS servers were installed by me using Fedora 
Linux and BIND 9 daemon/service. It is quite simple actually. The final 
assignment for me in the company was to install and configure all the 
Yulgang game servers. Majority of the Yulgang game servers are using 
openSUSE 10.2 32-bit Linux. Only a few Yulgang servers are using Windows 
servers. (William Phoon Choon Keong, who was my former IT department 
manager in Asiasoft Online before Melvin Lee came in to replace him 
towards the end of July 2009, installed and managed the Yulgang Windows 
game servers.) GetAmped is using Solaris UNIX. During the relocation of 
the company office from Singapore Post @ Paya Lebar to Tampines Central, 
I had a chance to play around with CISCO switches and routers and learn 
some CISCO IOS commands (mostly forgotten by now). But networking is not 
my forte. I am mostly an IT infrastructure engineer. I have yet to take 
the CCNA. By the way, the same rumour mongering that happened in NCS Ltd 
also surfaced in Asiasoft Online Pte Ltd.

(19) My father suffered from a mild stroke on 13 September 2009 in which 
his left side of the body was affected and he was warded for 19 days. He 
was discharged from Changi General Hospital Singapore on 1st October 
2009. On the same day, I resigned from Asiasoft Online Pte Ltd.

(20) After resigning from Asiasoft Online Pte Ltd on 1st October 2009, 
my neighbours and their friends suddenly and unexpectedly increased 
their force and intensity tremendously in harassing, frightening, 
terrifying, threatening, and conducting psychological warfare/abuse on 
me, culminating in a severe panic attack on 27 May 2010 Thursday and 
several other panic attacks after that, leading to my hospitalization on 
1st June 2010 in Changi General Hospital for a period of 32 days, and 
discharging on 2nd July 2010, which I have already described above. The 
27 May 2010 panic attack was an extremely terrible experience for me. I 
thought I was having a heart attack and going to die. I was having a  
hyperventilation and my heart rate goes up to almost 150 beats per 
minute. Both my palms were totally cramped up. My heart was also aching. 
It took about an hour before the panic attack subsides.

(21) As at 11 August 2010 4:03 A.M. Singapore Time, I am still having 
chest pain in the upper left side of my chest from time to time. 
Although the doctors at CGH stubbornly pinned everything on panic 
attacks and anxiety symptoms and ruled out the possibility of a 
heart/coronary artery disease, I am taking no chances at all. It is 
after all my life. I really suspect that I might have an underlying 
heart/coronary artery disease condition which could have been masked by 
my panic attacks and anxiety symptoms. I have a suspicion that my main 
blood arteries or veins in the chest could have been narrowed. Otherwise 
what could have given rise to a chronic chest pain since Jan 2009? I 
want a MRI test for my chest and a functional MRI (fMRI) test for my 
brain as well. I want to live and I want to live to a ripe old age. I 
want to have a long and healthy life.

(22) Sometime in October 2009, my neighbours were saying that I have 
appeared on Singapore's national Mediacorp TV in the corridor of our 
apartment block. I could not independently verify whether I have 
appeared on the national TV during this period or some earlier period. 
But the strangest thing was that people started to avoid me. My 
relatives (maternal side) were initially reluctant to talk to me over 
the phone. They did not even visit my house during Chinese New Year 
2010. My secondary school friends, polytechnic friends, army friends, 
NUS friends, NCS friends, Asiasoft Online friends, and ClubSNAP 
photography friends were suddenly refusing or were afraid to answer my 
phone calls! I have about 300 people on my Windows Live MSN list and 
more than 250 people have deleted me from their MSN list. Total 
strangers in the streets and public places started giving me weird 
looks, or whispering about me, or taking a few steps back away from me. 
Even patients, nurses and other staffs in government general hospitals 
were doing the same thing. What is actually going on? If I really did 
appear on the national TV, what was actually being reported about me? I 
want to know the answer. Maybe the Reporters without Borders could help.

(23) One day in Shenton Way, I overheard a stranger in a food court 
saying that my neighbours and their friends were discussing about me on 
Singapore's Mediacorp radio stations. I could not independently verify 
whether I have actually been brought up on radio stations in Singapore. 
There are so many radio stations in Singapore! So which one should I 
tune in to? And what are the timings?

(24) My relatives (maternal and paternal sides) did eventually visit us 
recently. My relatives (maternal side) visited my house 1-2 weeks ago 
after receiving a phone call from my mother in hospital. She was 
admitted on 9th July 2010 together with the assistance (or rather the 
presence) of CGH Medical Social Worker Miss Cerene Wong. My relatives 
(paternal side) visited our house a few days back though I don't even 
recognize them. Please note that I am writing this on 11 August 2010 
Wednesday Singapore Time.

(25) I am extremely baffled by my neighbours' knowledge of my 
conversations with doctors and nurses in Changi General Hospital 
Singapore and Singapore General Hospital. I am also baffled by their 
knowledge of my medical appointments and when I change my medical 
appointments. Who gave them all these information?

(26) My neighbours told me that their masters' intention and motivation 
is to systematically destroy me.

(27) Please don't fix me. Please. Please don't make my life miserable 
for eternity. Please. Please Please Please. Please leave me alone in 
peace. Please. Please don't make me keep on having panic attacks. I will 
definitely suffer from heart attacks very early on in life due to the 
protracted psychological abuse putting the extra strain on my heart. 
Please. Please Please Please.

(28) I am hoping to get a job in the IT sector within the next 1-2 or 3 
months. I am currently waiting for my mother to be discharged from the 
Institute of Mental Health (IMH) hospital. Dr. Malu (think I got the 
name wrong) there has already told me she would be discharged within a 
few days or a few weeks. Please don't do the same thing to me 
(harassing, frightening, terrifying, threatening, and psychological 
warfare/abuse) for my next job again. Please. I am anticipating that you 
will do it with an extremely high probability.

(29) Please don't persecute me. Please. Please. Please.

Yours sincerely,

Mr. Teo En Ming
Chinese Hanyu Pinyin Name: Zhang Enming
Citizenship: Singapore Citizen/Singaporean
Facebook: Teo En Ming (Zhang Enming)
Mobile Phone (Starhub Prepaid): +65-8369-2618
MSN/Windows Live Messenger: [log in to unmask]

ATOM RSS1 RSS2